I have this problem, see. I can't help but smirk at people when they're talking serious to me.
I can feel it in my face. They're talking about death, or cancer, or their bad day... and I notice my mouth pinch. I can feel my eyes look inappropriately amused.
This has happened since I was a little girl, where my parents would yell at me and although I was trying desperately hard not to-- I would smirk. This would inevitably make them angrier.
I guess it's like a tooth that's about to fall out, or a paper cut-- I secretly want to poke at it to see what happens. It's like a secret obsession with dirty mags or books about serial killers-- it's delicious and tingly and oh so wrong.
This is hugely irresponsible. I'm not sure why I do it, and I don't know if I want to stop it.
Sincerely yours,
M
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